He’s live and kicking

Does age really matter with you?

Initially I never took this question so seriously. This question was ridiculous. Life is only once, to have it to full satisfaction, spending time for fun, enjoying every moment doing whatever one likes, wandering, being free as a bird was what I thought about how my life will go on. Let it flow naturally, don’t push too much was what my naive mind drove me.

Time passes by, you don’t see everything the same as it was before.

Where are your friends when you grow up? During your childhood, it was so fun gathering with your friends. Playing together, having good laughters, studying in a group, planning your future (of course from a child’s perspective), quarrelling (hey, kids have their own way to express feeling) are some things you averagely remember. To be eternal was what you hoped they would be. The reality, they are just your past. Some are stored in your photoalbums and the rest are left in your memory.

Here comes the adult world. You start thinking that it’s less likely to meet friends. There are merely colleagues, apt people you meet for interest. Take and give. They be your enemy some of the time and they are your friend at the other time. You’re gradually acquainted to a term call "business friend". You start questioning why situation around you changes when you’re still not ready yet to accept it as a fact. You get distracted. Feeling like being in a maze where you haven’t already found the way out or like facing a scattered puzzle with a clear picture unrevealed.

Just like another journey, you meet people around while you’re on the walk in the journey of life. People around give you influence, some insight, or even direction to your final destination. Step by step, you collect the pieces or trace your path in the maze and obscurely figure the bigger picture, your final destination. You soon realize you’re not a child anymore. You’ve grown up. Responsibility is around you. People take a look at you by who you are, not your parents. All your acts lead to consequences. Sad fact is you can not decide for your own sake. There are some constraints you should take into account, commonly people around you like your family or your beloved person. Your choice is not pure, even if the consequence is burdened on your shoulder.

You can’t predict how your path will be. Say you’ve already known your destination and now are putting your energy on each steps in the path. Will you be able to walk through smoothly, ignoring all the obstruction, and achieve your goals.

The art of life is problem solving and self controlling to meet the final destination. Life is a game which Creator is too magnificent. You may take pointers, learning from your past, but you’ll never predict what to occur exactly. Here a condition applies. Unless you’re able to pass each step, you’ll never find the end.

As a living creature, two events must occur, birth and death. All of us have undergone the first event, the birth, the starting node of our life. Nobody knows his/her death, so that one can never predict when he/she can consider him/herself achieving most (or radically all) of his/her goals. Hence, a constraint must be properly weighed, time.

Time can not lapse back. It always goes forward.  It’s like a line which is shortened as the clock ticks and the smaller, wasted bar can’t be taken back. Completion of goal is accumulation of effort. If some bars are not carved with effort, to achieve the goals, there can only be two options to occur: 1] the line (or life span) is longer - which is unlikely to happen (though they say, one should dare to say that he will live a hundred years, i’m against this statement indeed) or 2) the rest of the line has more dense effort.

I did mistakes in the past. Making some of my bars uncarved. Without any notice, time has eaten some of my age cake. Twenty four. Two and two square. If I walked at two efforts per day to reach the goals, it’s now time to speed up, square the speed. Hopefully.

The road is narrow ahead. I’m taking my path, diving into the trench of challenges.