He’s live and kicking

Does age really matter with you?

Initially I never took this question so seriously. This question was ridiculous. Life is only once, to have it to full satisfaction, spending time for fun, enjoying every moment doing whatever one likes, wandering, being free as a bird was what I thought about how my life will go on. Let it flow naturally, don’t push too much was what my naive mind drove me.

Time passes by, you don’t see everything the same as it was before.

Where are your friends when you grow up? During your childhood, it was so fun gathering with your friends. Playing together, having good laughters, studying in a group, planning your future (of course from a child’s perspective), quarrelling (hey, kids have their own way to express feeling) are some things you averagely remember. To be eternal was what you hoped they would be. The reality, they are just your past. Some are stored in your photoalbums and the rest are left in your memory.

Here comes the adult world. You start thinking that it’s less likely to meet friends. There are merely colleagues, apt people you meet for interest. Take and give. They be your enemy some of the time and they are your friend at the other time. You’re gradually acquainted to a term call "business friend". You start questioning why situation around you changes when you’re still not ready yet to accept it as a fact. You get distracted. Feeling like being in a maze where you haven’t already found the way out or like facing a scattered puzzle with a clear picture unrevealed.

Just like another journey, you meet people around while you’re on the walk in the journey of life. People around give you influence, some insight, or even direction to your final destination. Step by step, you collect the pieces or trace your path in the maze and obscurely figure the bigger picture, your final destination. You soon realize you’re not a child anymore. You’ve grown up. Responsibility is around you. People take a look at you by who you are, not your parents. All your acts lead to consequences. Sad fact is you can not decide for your own sake. There are some constraints you should take into account, commonly people around you like your family or your beloved person. Your choice is not pure, even if the consequence is burdened on your shoulder.

You can’t predict how your path will be. Say you’ve already known your destination and now are putting your energy on each steps in the path. Will you be able to walk through smoothly, ignoring all the obstruction, and achieve your goals.

The art of life is problem solving and self controlling to meet the final destination. Life is a game which Creator is too magnificent. You may take pointers, learning from your past, but you’ll never predict what to occur exactly. Here a condition applies. Unless you’re able to pass each step, you’ll never find the end.

As a living creature, two events must occur, birth and death. All of us have undergone the first event, the birth, the starting node of our life. Nobody knows his/her death, so that one can never predict when he/she can consider him/herself achieving most (or radically all) of his/her goals. Hence, a constraint must be properly weighed, time.

Time can not lapse back. It always goes forward.  It’s like a line which is shortened as the clock ticks and the smaller, wasted bar can’t be taken back. Completion of goal is accumulation of effort. If some bars are not carved with effort, to achieve the goals, there can only be two options to occur: 1] the line (or life span) is longer - which is unlikely to happen (though they say, one should dare to say that he will live a hundred years, i’m against this statement indeed) or 2) the rest of the line has more dense effort.

I did mistakes in the past. Making some of my bars uncarved. Without any notice, time has eaten some of my age cake. Twenty four. Two and two square. If I walked at two efforts per day to reach the goals, it’s now time to speed up, square the speed. Hopefully.

The road is narrow ahead. I’m taking my path, diving into the trench of challenges.

Being a genius is sometimes a trouble…

Have you ever thought yourself as a different entity from your surroundings? When you see numbers, you feel the meeting with an old,intimate friends. Floating around and lighting up your soul. So tempting and challenging. The blossom face is full of smile. Your brain is fully deployed. Electric pulse is constantly generated, flowing smoothly through the nerve system. Dendrite and neurite are quite orgasmic, triggering the impulses so fast. You’re a total living machine.

They avoid it, you seek it.

And now you are among other living creatures. They are not numbers nor codes. As a nature of problem to occur anywhere, you immediately realize that you’re in a game of life with troubles hindering. They are your stages. You need to overcome them one by one. The difference is unlike the game you usually play with your game console, you can not save your current path and replay it later from your saving scene when you score a mistake. You know it, realizing it as a fact, and your genius mind starts plotting strategies.

What’s behind your mind? Witty strategies and accurate calculation are your weapons. You predict the outcome by observing how such problem might occur in the past and planning how you will solve them with your ability. You think that they are all trivial. You should make no mistake. The fact, you failed the stage at your first attempt since you oversimplify your cases.

Here I list ten most common mistakes, a genius often makes when dealing with problems:

1. Underestimating the problem. You think it must be it and you’re smart enough to solve. The fact, it’s sometimes harder than you think.
2. Undisclosing the hidden variables. The other name is simplification. Let’s speak from  math approach.  You have a linear equation with N variables. To have a trivial solution, you need to have unique solution for each variable x1,x2,…,xN so that they satisfy equation y. Unfortunately, the number of variables you take into account is less than N so that now the equation has non trivial solution. Simply speaking, the outcome will vary. The result is not like what you expect since you forget to include the hidden variables.
3. Too much focus on single problem. Well, now the problem takes more of your time. You’re too much involved and running out your time. There are more problems to be solved, general! Life is not only about single problem.
4. Abandoning the problem, when it’s too hard. You now realize that you’re not up to the solution.  Your genius mind boasts your pride that you only need more time. At the other side, your sanity timidly acknowledges that you have failed. Seconds, minutes, hours pass by and now you’re at the edge of a river with swift current where you’ll throw the problem and forget that you ever faced it. Running will never solve a problem, indeed.
5. Not learning from previous mistake. Only donkey stumbles upon the same holes three times. Sadly said, a genius is sometimes worse than a donkey. Here is the cause, pride and self confidence. Genius hardly says that he has done a mistake. His pride is too high to consider such thing exists in the world. What happens next is mistake occured repetitively. To learn from mistake is what everybody should do to make better self quality, even for a genius.
6. Not focusing on single problem. Contrarily to [3], a genius sometimes does too many things at the same time. The basic reason for this is since he considers he’s so talented and up to many different cases. It might be right but it could possibly wrong. A genius may be able to solve many different cases, but solving them at once? Not really. Focusing on single problem, setting priorities is proper method to manage the problems and find a way out of the potential troubles.
7. Not communicating well. People won’t know your plans unless you properly tell them about. A genius often makes presumption and consider people aware about his steps and plans. The fact, even if he tells people, not all will understand. Building a communication skill is an important factor that a genius often neglects. Sometimes, the solution involves people around you and you need them to know how it would be achieved.
8. Not listening to others. They have suggestions and advice, but you’re too ignorant to even consider it a bit. You might be on your right track by relying on yourself. But sometimes, people’s advice is right and could avoid the bitterness that might occur in the future.

You’ve read eight, and now come the two most fatal mistakes:

9. Not revealing yourself as a genius. You know yourself a genius but you’re too much afraid of how yourself will be messed up with popularity and exposure to more troubles in the future. Genius means responsibility. You have to take into account that you have something that makes you not so ordinary and you can not avoid it. Keep away the thought of living happily in a calm small village and instead start thinking that you can change a tidbit of the world, however small it is.

10.
Not thinking from ordinary human perspective
Is what geniuses often abandon
Once they realize
It’s the gateway to their actualization
As a part of the humanity

Less a genius more a human
Swaying in a dream
To be sprayed in reality